Sunday, July 31, 2011

"Just breath and keep faith"

     .... Inhale....Exhale..... ahhhhhhh......Just breath Megan, just breath. Woooo Weeee! Finally, I have a little bit of time to write a blog post, and catch you all up on the Hairs. What a crazy, sad, exciting, emotional, and fast paced month and a half it's been. Just like all my other blog posts, I really don't know where to begin. So, I guess I'll start where I left off, which was Lee's first 2 weeks.


Little man at 3 weeks.
     My, my, my, this little dude is growing up sooooo fast! I knew it would be fast, but goodness, I barely blink and another week has passed. I know I keep writing this on my fb statuses. The fact of Lee growing up is a bitter sweet feeling. Don't get me wrong, I'm so excited to get to all the next steps... but if Lee wanted to stay little forever, I wouldn't mind it one bit. I'd be more than happy to change those diapers forever! But I know that isn't possible, so instead of sitting here dwelling on the fact that my little guy is growing up, and time is speeding by, I'm going to enjoy every second of him, soak it in, and just look forward to being a part of every step and milestone of his life, which I'm more than grateful for  because not a day goes by that I don't think of my husband who would do anything to be with us but can't. Because of that, he won't be able to see all of Lee's "firsts" in person. So instead of having a pity party for myself 'cause Lee is starting all of his milestones, I just need to be content and grateful I get to be there for them. 


     As many of you know, R.J. left for  Germany on July 7th. It was a very very hard "bye for now", because for the simple fact, we don't really know when we'll see each other again, and when we'll be able to live together as a family again, and for the fact that we just had Lee who turned 6 weeks old the day R.J. left.   When we were about 6 months pregnant, we really didn't like the fact that we were going to Germany anymore, but we couldn't change the orders, no matter how hard we tried. Then he was told that we were staying in Ft. Bragg the week we were having Lee. We were beyond happy about it. We felt like everything was going right. No, we didn't like the idea of staying in Fayetteville/Bragg, 'cause it really isn't our favorite place, but we would have much rather stayed there if it meant we could be together as a family. So, around 3-4weeks before R.J. left, he was told that his orders didn't change, and he was back on for Germany. It was too late for Lee and I to go and that we had to be put on "command sponsorship" once he got over to Grafenwoehr. Once he got over there, he was told that as of now it doesn't look like 
Lee and I will be allowed to head over till around 6-9 months. Well, we just found out that R.J. will  
be deploying sometime in the first half of 2012 to Afghanistan. So as of now, it looks like Lee and  
I won't be heading over till he gets back to Germany from the deployment. I mean, this is how it 
stands right now, we're talking military here. So there is a chance it could change. When we 
heard this news, it was a hard pill to swallow. But, we can't dwell on it, because this is how 
it is, and we can't change it. The Lord knows what He's doing, and RJ and I are just trying to 
make the best out of the crummy situation we're in. Just making us stronger. We are doing things
like making a bunch of goals that we're going to stick to and accomplish before we're together 
again, and planning his visits home and mine to Germany, which we're so excited for. The first is
Christmas. We're hoping RJ can take some leave and come home to see us for a little bit. Lee 
and I are possibly going over to Germany on his block leave before he deploys or he'll come to 
Charleston, not sure yet, but we're for sure going over to Germany for homecoming. Everything is just 
up in the air right now, we don't really know anything for sure, hopefully we'll know something 
soon.





At the airport, right before he left.


We get to webcam each other every so often, when his Internet wants to cooperate, but I do 
get a phone call every day, which is so nice:) Lee loves to watch his daddy on the webcam. 
You would think he's too young, but he stares and stares at that computer when his daddy is on.
I love it. 
R.J. says that Germany is beautiful. It's so clean, he says, that it puts America to shame. He's 
going to take pictures of everything. When he tells me all about it, it excites me even more to 
go over! When I fly over to see him, it'll be my very first time on a plane, kinda nervous. The 
very first time on a plane, flying over the ocean, with my son! Makes me weak thinking about it,
but will be totally worth it. He's on two baseball teams over there, a unit team and the Post team.
The post team travels post to post all around Germany to play games, I'm so happy that he gets
that experience. It'll help him pass time for sure. He hasn't gotten any of his household goods yet. 
ll he has is his computer, poor guy. His stuff should be arriving sometime at the end of August- 
beginning of September. He's very excited to get his stuff, he said it'll feel like Christmas when
he gets it. LOL!


      As of now, Lee and I are at my parents house. We get our own place in October. I'm so 
ready to get all of my stuff in one place, I don't like living out of storage to much =/ . I'm very
ready to set up Lee's official nursery, too. Plus, when RJ comes home for a visit, I want him coming
home to our home. I get back to college work next month. I'm very ready to get that started and 
finished. I'm doing everything I possibly can do to keep busy so I don't concentrate on not being
together, The best thing to do is to keep very busy, which Lee is helping his
momma with a whole bunch! He's such a blessing. <3




     Lee is smiling at everything now. It's my favorite thing. He used to smile just here and there,
but now he smiles so much! He's also batting at all his toys. He makes great eye contact,
starting to hold his head up by himself,  and is already a momma's boy, well that's what I'm told.


Holding my head up!!!!!
looking all grown up with spit up on his shirt<3
end of a smile:)







Well, I have a hungry guy I need to go feed before I have a not too happy hungry guy. No fun! 
Until next update......
Love,
The Hair Family<3


"Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will. "









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